This is a particularly fascinating one:
An Indiana woman who injected her husband with a lethal dose of heroin before smothering him with a pillow may be responsible for nine other deaths — and is suspected of serving her lover’s remains to unsuspecting neighbors at a barbecue.
Kelly M. Cochran, 34, was sentenced to 65 years in prison last month after admitting to killing her husband, Jason Cochran. But she was already serving a life sentence for killing and dismembering another lover, Chris Regan, who vanished in 2014, Indy Star reported.
An upcoming documentary called “Dead North,” set to air on May 28 and 29 on Investigation Discovery, probes other possible murders that may be linked to Cochran. Cochran’s family told investigators she may have killed as many as nine people and buried their bodies throughout the Midwest.
Her friends and family also told investigators the stomach-churning tale of how Cochran allegedly served Regan’s remains to her neighbors at a barbecue.
Like anyone who has dealt with one extensively, I know how these characters think and work. That type of thing is very carefully planned, and rehearsed repeatedly in the mind prior to execution by the narcissist. If they can, they will try dry runs, where they test as much as they can without actually committing the act, just to confirm that what they have visualized is accurate. It is not any sort of spur of the moment thing. They plan compulsively when they fuck people over, be it doing something like this or just conjuring a way to innocently ruin some festivity they have to attend where everyone will be happy. As a word of advice, if you ever see a narcissist hyper-focused on you, or gauging you carefully, look to see if there might be something that just happened which could be an element of something worse, which they are testing in a dry run to see if you would notice it.
By the time she sat watching him die, she had already seen it happen thirty, maybe a hundred times or more in her mind. And she enjoyed it every time, which is why she followed through. He fell for it, he was stupid, she was smart, the stress of life abated for a moment, she was in control, and all those grievances she accumulated, which he may never have noticed existed, were finally avenged. Those are all amygdala-relievers, which combined produce total amygdala relief. Victory! She probably went somewhat manic afterward, and had a blast, free from the burden of having to see him and the stress inherent to the lead up to killing him.
I’ve described Narcissist Masking before. When stressed or guilty, the narcissist (and probably other amygdala-addled psychologies), will try to force their face into a blank, conflict avoidant, harmless expression of cluelessness. I believe they do it so if attacked for the evil they are commiting, they can better feign innocence and cluelessness, and portray their attacker as mentally unbalanced.
The expression involves raising the eyebrows unnaturally high, and drawing the corners of the lips outward, thereby stretching the mouth wide, to evince mental vacuity and lack of awareness. It is much like that that expression made by the old comedian Stan Laurel when he would try to openly evince the stupidity and cluelessness of his character. Here, he makes a similar expression while trying to smile, but imagine that character trying to look blank and clueless, maybe after screwing something up:
I have always suspected he was close to a narcissist who made a masking face every time he fucked everything up and screwed up his friends, and Stan stole this face from his memory when creating a clueless character who was always upsetting the plans of his more dominant friends. Imagine Stan, going through a part of his life with some malevolent idiot fucking him over at every turn while making that face, and Stan could never retaliate because all the fuck-overs appeared as simply innocent cluelessness by a loyal friend. All the while the narcissist was laughing inside at how stupid he was. That is the ideal life the Narcissist aspires to live – inflicting pain while not only avoiding the detriments of exposure, but while also enjoying the perks of the loyalty of their betters.
But this case’s face was fascinating. Notice how on the conscious right side, the outer eyebrows are drawn up, and the mouth drawn wide, and then compare that to Stan. She is trying to say with her face, “I am not even ware of what is going on,” and it ends up looking just like Stan, minus the smile:
What is amazing about her is that she exhibits that expression almost entirely on her right, consciously controlled side of her face. Her left true side is entirely an open expression of exactly the type of reflexive hatred and contempt that would lure men to their deaths, and then enjoy serving their remains at a barbecue to everyone else to fuck with them too. I cannot even attempt to replicate her full face myself in a mirror without feeling an odd, twisted sensation in my brain, yet to her it came effortlessly.
Up until now, I have assumed the right side was simply exhibiting greater conscious control and muscular strength due to stronger Hebbian effects on innervation and greater muscular development in the non-cognitive structures outside of the sentient parts of the brain. But her expressions seem so well presented on each side, and entirely divergent, that now I am beginning to wonder if maybe that extreme facial bifurcation is signaling a greater cognitive miswiring inside the sentient parts of the brain, more than a mere stronger neural control over the muscles on the right side of the face. I even wonder if on a test of handedness, she might be extraordinarily right-handed – even more than most people, because some vital connection deep in her brain is broken.
I had assumed such facially bifurcated people were united inside their brains into one “mind.” In it an entirely evil personality was trying to consciously express their face evenly and it just happened to be stronger on one side due to the physical structures.
But perhaps it is a more complex situation, such as, for example, where wiring elements of the brain which are supposed to synchronize the public and private personae into one person get split up somehow into two perceptions of self.
Perhaps due to some lack of connection of the two, these, to varying degrees, seize control over the different sides of the face, as if two personalities, one innately evil foundation emerging on the left, the other passive but in conscious control of the right, as it desperately focuses on avoiding the punishments produced by the left-side elements of the brain.
It is interesting, because Brain Side Theory claims the left side of the brain controls the right side of the body, and is responsible for logic, while the right side of the brain controls the left, and is responsible for artistic expression, which I see as more evocative of the emotional. If the two split and get disconnected, maybe you are like two people, with an emotional side that if angry by constitution must be sated with the death of your enemies, and a left side that is powerless to stop it, and ends up focused on trying to avoid the consequences. And that lack of synchronization shows up on the face.
That the right side masking facial expression here is totally absent from the left may indicate some deeper mis-wiring is at the root of her considerable issues. Her left side isn’t even trying, in the least, to produce that clueless expression. Those are two different faces, and that left side isn’t running any of the right’s masking/logical/consequence-avoidant code.
Tough to say without extensive fMRI work which would prove incredibly difficult to get a Narcissist to agree to. But for now, file away that the facial split may signal some very deep miswiring in the brain that makes people even more dangerous than I was already asserting they are.
Stan Laurel may not have been acting…
http://www.crazydaysandnights.net/2018/03/todays-blind-items-killer-comedian-old.html?m=1
Wow. I saw in another article he actually dug the grave he intended to put one of his mistresses in, but never followed through.
I saw this photo of Stephen Colbert the other day and thought of your analysis. It’s a frightening look.
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Is that a size difference? It doesn’t look like her head is turned.
I can’t really tell. It could be.
It may not be miswiring. Though I think there is a surgical procedure for effectively severing one hemisphere from the other for some very serious neurological problem or decease. I forgot which.
Anyway, it may be a natural development ie as the old saying goes: what you feed, grows.
I’ll give an example from the other extreme. There is an aspect to a person that is designed (by our Creator) for the spiritual realm. Think of it as an organ like any other in the body, say, such as the muscles. Exercise it, and it grows. Don’t, or worse — beat it up (or down) and it eventually dies.
Or, let’s say you have the capacity to become a violinist but never take a lesson. It’s a seed within you but it is never discovered never mind developed.
I think we are born with lots of these “seeds” some of them not good ones.
Christianity (proper) recognizes this (human nature) and asks you to overcome the bad ones within you. Be transformed.
This woman was likely seduced (abused) early on and she indulged it’s nature and it grew and grew worse. Eventually she is a demon, which was the seed she nurtured. Does it matter if there is a devil? I can’t tell the difference between her and it.
https://umaine.edu/edhd/research/acc/what-is-agenesis-of-the-corpus-callosum-acc/
I’ve been thinking about this a great deal lately. I believe that both my mother and my brother, a raging alcoholic have (don’t have?) this. I know my grandson does, he was diagnosed shortly after birth. I know I have and intact CC, I had a c-spine MRI last thursday for another problem, but my CC is clearly intact, even for a non-radiologist to look at the images.
My mother and brother both had extreme difficulties with math. My mother would not have graduated college without my dad’s help. My brother was tested extensively for learning disorder’s in about the 4th grade. The conclusion was a “math block.” My father was highly intelligent, recruited out of college by the CDC, an epidemiologist. I have degrees in math, computer science and law.
My brother has been such an impediment that I have made the decision to remove him from my life permanently. My dad was a 20 year Parkinson’s victim, and was declining rapidly last year. He wanted to go to assisted living, they refused admission. Part of this was legal paperwork, power’s of attorney and such. My brother insisted that “I think mom should do it…..”, mom of course agreed. I was secondary. The look on the lawyers face was priceless. One does not reasonably make a 77 year old woman with a dementia diagnosis responsible for ones help. My dad was too far gone mentally to understand enough to object, and might not have even cared: he had given up.
My dad entered hospice care in February, and my brother insisted that “Mom should be the primary contact,” not me, who was the ONLY one competent to handle such care. I have also done it before, my second wife passed in 2006. I knew what to expect……
My brother appeared with literally a trunkload of cases of beer, a cooler, and had, imho, planned to binge drink his way through my dad’s passing. My mother’s dementia has progressed to at least the early stages of Alzheimer’s, imho. I have seen this before as welll with her mother. She was unbelievable hard to deal with, aggressive, mean, accusing be of all manner of “desires” which were just of course not true. Wanting to “take control,” “steal her house?? (wtf how, I’m not a bank.). She called the cops late one night, reporting the house was being burglarized. Two sherriff’s rolled up while I was outside having a smoke. It was absurd.
About two weeks later, she threatened to call again, phone in hand. I had already dismissed by brother at this point, I had to be *VERY* harsh with him to get him to piss off. Necessary, but I don’t think regrettable, His interference was making it near impossible to care for my dad. He has (imho) manipulated my mother for year by agreeing to her every word. I split, called about three hours later after she calmed down and we agreed that I would be back in the morning.
At 4 am, I got a call from the nearby hospital, she had called 911, had him taken to the hospital, out of hospice care, revoked his DNR as his health care agent, and he was being admitted to ICU in critical condition. Saddest thing I’ve ever seen, stomach pumped, gastric tube installed, IV’s, many medications, sedated with propofol. I was in a courtroom at 8am explaining this to the probate judge, The physician at the hospital went with me and testified that my mother should be declared incompetent and removed as agent. She was. He was incredibly angry.
Took him off sedation the next day. His last word was “Home.” He died there 10 days later.
All this crazyness and sufferring caused by malformed brain structures. I think it is possible.
I’m very sorry. I cannot imagine the combination of stresses all at the same time. That you managed to just put your head down and bull through all of that is amazing.